Today, I would normally go to the farmers market, get groceries with Jeb, and have dinner with Erik. I found myself wondering why I hadn’t been to yoga in a while, having forgotten for a moment that I have a broken leg and can’t leave my house very often. I am happy with the shape my legs are in now, as my feet now meet before my knees do. I’ve never had this shape in my life, and I think it’ll make life a bit easier and lower the amount of pain I’m in day to day. My leg is still pretty swollen though.
I also have trouble remembering things lately, like how to speak in complete sentences and where I’ve put things. I hate not feeling like I’m on top of things, though I do feel a lot more clearheaded than last time when I had my back done.
One thing I have been disappointed by is that I feel like my friends are too busy to hang out with me. I feel like they feel like because they were here for my back surgery, they feel like they’ve done their bit. I just remember when people got sick or had surgery when I was little, everyone in the community came around the person and brought them food and took care of them. Perhaps that’s a result of many of my friends not knowing each other. I don’t know exactly why, but it’s bothered me. I’m already pretty lonely, and I’m only two weeks out from surgery. 🙁
Mom gets here tonight though, which is exciting! I think we’ll have fun. ☺️